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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
    #633216 - 07/30/12 02:02 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Damn you have some long withdrawals...then again other than my main addiction recovery I havent used for any real length of time....so I guess it sounds about right.  You getting restless legs?


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Re: forever junkie [Re: Hawksresurrection]
    #633217 - 07/30/12 02:14 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Yeah restless legs is probably the worst part, along with hot and cold sweats.

I am feeling pretty stellar right now though, 73 hours clean not 4 full days yet, day 4 just started an hour ago. (most sites say peak symptoms hit at 72 hours but i feel mine were more around 50 hour mark)

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
    #633218 - 07/30/12 02:29 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

C-Dopa,L-Dopa can help with the restless legs.  I had that for over a year after I got clean, couldn't for more than an hour without that stuff.


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Re: forever junkie [Re: Hawksresurrection]
    #633219 - 07/30/12 03:17 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Yeah im just going to ride it out substance free, might grab some beers this week but just getting my body back to peak shape.

Going to start hitting the gym once class starts

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
    #633225 - 07/30/12 06:59 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

picklez, this might sound stupid, but what youve been learning and gaining from your journies on the substances and everything, I dont mean to sound like a bitch, but it sounds like society is getting to you and... destroying the magic in your life?

My heart just ached and I had to say this to you

I know youre a special person and it just feels weird to... lose you to a school system and coorporate grounds... it scares me picklez!

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
    #633226 - 07/30/12 06:59 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

or rather... saddens me :/

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
    #633229 - 07/30/12 08:08 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

but forget me, im being weird and dun wanna talk about it :b act your way

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
    #633231 - 07/30/12 09:06 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Quote:

Fisherman said:
picklez, this might sound stupid, but what youve been learning and gaining from your journies on the substances and everything, I dont mean to sound like a bitch, but it sounds like society is getting to you and... destroying the magic in your life?

My heart just ached and I had to say this to you

I know youre a special person and it just feels weird to... lose you to a school system and coorporate grounds... it scares me picklez!




Your so fucked.

Dont listen to a word this guy says picklez.
I dont think your that much of an idiot anyway.


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Re: forever junkie [Re: drawde]
    #633232 - 07/30/12 09:10 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

haha, yeah i dont pay him no attention

halfway through day 4. got some minor cravings but im staying solid

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Re: forever junkie [Re: drawde]
    #633234 - 07/30/12 09:21 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Shootin dope frees me from the system man

:thisisterrible:


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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
    #633235 - 07/30/12 09:23 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Quote:

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haha, yeah i dont pay him no attention

halfway through day 4. got some minor cravings but im staying solid




Those bitch ass cravings dont have shit on you.


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Re: forever junkie [Re: drawde]
    #633238 - 07/30/12 09:30 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Im having a disney movie marathon today and tomorrow

time for some Lion King :lol:

I miss being a kid :frown:

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
    #633241 - 07/30/12 10:53 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

I wasnt telling him to shoot dope, im just saying theres something to learn from it, imo, and there are tipping points of the balances...

The plant realm is weird, very different than our system...

call me as weird as u want but im just as real as u guys

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
    #633242 - 07/30/12 10:57 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Shoot dope, learn thangs.

:lamastare:


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Re: forever junkie [Re: drawde]
    #633299 - 07/31/12 02:44 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Havent posted here in a long time, Maybe you remember me Pickelz, I am also a dope head. I live in Minneapolis where our dope is 93% pure and cheap as fuck.  I'm 26 and been on and off dope since 18.  February 28th I admitted myself into a treatment center, I did it without thinking much and that was a mistake, I'm an atheist and made the mistake of going to a 12 step program. Despite the fact they changed it to be "God as you see HIM" I still call bullshit on anybody who says its not a faith based program. I believe if I get sober its because I was strong enough to, not because some dick god decided to grant me a 2nd chance.

ok ranting... ANYWAY, 14 days into my 21 day stay I said fuck this shit I'm leaving, I was convinced I would never use again. Had a friend pick me up and stayed at his place, Went home the next day to my parents telling me I couldent live there anymore...Convinced them It would be different this time (story of our lives right?) Got super depressed....Got a job as a telemarketer.....dident help it was full of drug addicts, Ended up buying some Fent patches from a kid one day and injecting them. And boom, only took one time and I was yet again fucked. I got fired for "making people feel unsafe and being a drug dealer" which was funny because I didnt sell drugs but a fuck load of the other people did....

Anyway, I used again for a few months, Ran out of money, parents called me out a few weeks ago and now I'm on day 14 clean yet again. No job, no car, no money.. Its a fucked up cycle man.  So hard to understand the pain we deal with on a daily basis, Its one thing to get past withdrawls, I always thought that was the hard part. Its not, staying clean is the hard part, for some fucking retarded ass reason I always end up thinking I'm fucking cured and I can use again. I cant, If we keep using were going to die.

Were addicts FOR LIFE, forever junkies. But there is always hope! You really have to cut yourself off from anybody who uses, throw your phone in the fucking trash.  We have a high tolerance for pain, but a short memory of it. You have to hold on to the pain your feeling right now, remember every second of it and use it anytime you are craving.

I don't really know why I'm typing this, I think the tap of the keys beats being alone in my head, in my room, in silence, in the dark.  Maybe this post is more for me than you, I just feel for you being a fellow addict, I hope this is the last time I kick, as well as the last time for you.  Stay strong brother, we can and will beat this shit. we are better than this!

-Lucid :shrug:

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Lucid]
    #633301 - 07/31/12 03:24 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Of course I remember who you are and thanks for saying what you did. I feel almost 100% how you do and find myself in a very similar financial situation. Throw on top of that a DUI warrant and it makes for even more fun.

I hope you stick with it man this time. Although I know what you mean about thinking you're cured and can use just once. Cant do it.

I also have a fucked situation where the guy im living next door to, is my dealer, so its soo close that even without a phone, id just knock on his door and hes always home and always has dope :thumbdown:

Actually thinking about going to turn myself in tomorrow and get most of my jail sentence done before school starts

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
    #633303 - 07/31/12 03:39 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

Warrants and drug dealers next door? lame.... That was one thing I never shared with people in treatment, a criminal record. I have a fucking guardian angel, I robbed drug dealers, one time at noon in the middle of downtown with a .45 and somehow still have no record, never spent a night in jail. I'm pretty sure I'm shit out of luck and will crash and burn hard if I ever start using again...

Hey atleast your in school man, Props for that. I got nothing to show for like the last 7 years of my life. How are your withdraws? Biggest thing for me is rapid heart beat/anxiety and the fucking restless leg syndrome. I was sober like 4 months this last time before I relapsed for a month and a half or so and somehow I'm not getting the restless leg shit this time and I'm able to sleep each night. I dident sleep for 105 hours straight in the treatment center, then it was like 3-4 hours a night for a month.

I really wish I could sleep right now.....FML. :nonono:

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Lucid]
    #633304 - 07/31/12 03:52 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

my warrant is for a DUI, nothing violent or felony level. just little bullshit they wanna give me 45 more days on. I will go do the time, but fuck doing it in August, it's hot as fuck here and we have that Tent Citty bullshit. Ill hit judge up in Mid-September lol

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
    #633305 - 07/31/12 04:00 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

haha so much for the turning yourself in tomorrow!

what are you on now? day 4?

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Re: forever junkie [Re: Lucid]
    #633307 - 07/31/12 04:18 AM (11 years, 7 months ago)

yeah fuck doing it tomorrow. another week at the earliest.

i fucked up and got a little 10 sack maybe 12 hours ago :thumbdown:
on the positive it was the shittiest dope i ever had and didnt even get a buzz, so maybe the setback wont be too bad

I think I just know what shitty shit I have to face soon and keep numbing having to think about it

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