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Fisherman
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633126 - 07/29/12 07:12 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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u guys and ur science, didnt yknow spaceships already gave us so much braincapacity that we dont need a school to make our lives come true?
I do not like education
where is the love peace and harmony in a university, god damned nowhere to be found
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drawde
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633127 - 07/29/12 07:14 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Life is still a lot fucking better 9 times out of 10 if you have that piece of paper in your hand.
University provides many valuable experiences and is a lot of fun depending on where you go.
-------------------- King Koopa said: The amount of pot that Gask smokes is equivalent to a guy shooting heroin on weekends
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Fisherman
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633128 - 07/29/12 07:15 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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but nevermind that, I hate discussing education, ima just run so far away from it that ill never be able to see it again.
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Fisherman
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633129 - 07/29/12 07:16 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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and what if the only paper you need is rolling paper, thatd be pretty cool
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: drawde]
#633130 - 07/29/12 07:18 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Quote:
drawde said: Why do you keep doing this to yourself? Either man up and stay clean or die a filthy junkie. You were granted a second chance with your education. This is go time. This time will define the rest of your life. Keep your head down and eye on the prize. Let the future, the one you want, be the force that pulls you through the bad and gives you strength. I recently went through something somewhat similar regarding education and lifestyle choice. I am going back to school with a full science course load come sept 4th. Its not what I want now, but its where I want to be later, and thats what matters.
Tell me about it man. I have 15,000 posts and I feel at least 5,000 of them have been regarding me trying to get off dope.
But you're 100% right, I actually have some shit to focus on now, and that's why I have buckled down and doing this the right way. Havent caved and bought Kratom. Havent went and got poppy seeds when I easily could.
I am sick of going through w/d's over and over again. And while this time was nothing like the hell ive experienced 2 other times after kicking after using for years; it is still taxing.
I am lucky of several things this time; I got unadultered dope my last time using; i went and stocked up on groceries (vitamin water, orange juice, soups, noddles, ect.); and ive had a safe place where no one has been around the past 2 days and ive been able to just soak in the bathtub every 3-4 hours without anyone noticing. I am hoping my roommate isnt around much today either or it's going to be rough.
This time is for good. I say that every time but after having 5+ months clean within the past 12 months, I know how good it feels to be clean and I know I can do it. If I wasnt dedicated, I would have already caved and got poppy's.
Thanks for the words though. I am really counting on this place to help get me through it
And while I know I will get some ballbusting, I deserve it. Ive been a punk bitch in dealing with my addiction. But already going through 54-55 hours of w/d's, I can start to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I give it another 48 hours before the physical symptoms pass and I can maybe get some sleep. Ive slept 3 hours in the past 2 1/2 days
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: drawde]
#633131 - 07/29/12 07:19 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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drawde said: Life is still a lot fucking better 9 times out of 10 if you have that piece of paper in your hand.
University provides many valuable experiences and is a lot of fun depending on where you go.
Yeah, after being out of school this past year and not even being able to get shitty jobs; id much rather be in school right now working towards something. Even if it doesnt go to plan, it at least buys me little time to figure shit out.
Class starts in a month. I will be ready.
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Fisherman
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633132 - 07/29/12 07:23 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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you sound like you have no dreams : (
ill just go to some corner and shut up now
cause in my dreams... im dirty broke, beautiful and free
:/
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RasJeph
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633133 - 07/29/12 07:27 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Picklez, just hire me to follow you around with a bat and I'll beat you with it every time you fuck up.
I work for weed on weekdays and hash on weekends.
-------------------- Of course it's happening inside your head. Why should that mean it isn't real?
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drawde
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633134 - 07/29/12 07:27 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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In my dreams I have a large property in my name, a nice car, good food and drink, my kids college paid for and the ability to travel anywhere in the world I would like.
I sort of see the charm in the hobo life... its just not for me or most people.
-------------------- King Koopa said: The amount of pot that Gask smokes is equivalent to a guy shooting heroin on weekends
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633135 - 07/29/12 07:28 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Hard to have dreams and goals when youve spent the last 4-5 years slowly losing everything you ever had because of having no self-control and drug addiction.
I went from being one of the smartest guys in my private, college prep high school, and having a full-ride to just about any public university that I wanted; to getting kicked out of school, losing my apartment, losing my freedom a couple of times, losing my Jeep, losing various women because of how drugs altered my thinking and my behavior.
So yeah, my only goal right now is to stay clean and get at least a 3.0 GPA next semester. That's about it.
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drawde
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Re: forever junkie [Re: RasJeph]
#633136 - 07/29/12 07:28 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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RasJeph said: I work for weed on weekdays and hash on weekends.
Quote:
RasJeph said: Picklez, just hire me to follow you around with a bat and I'll beat you with it every time you fuck up.
No doubt, I would whip his ass into shape in a jiff.
-------------------- King Koopa said: The amount of pot that Gask smokes is equivalent to a guy shooting heroin on weekends
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: RasJeph]
#633138 - 07/29/12 07:30 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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RasJeph said: Picklez, just hire me to follow you around with a bat and I'll beat you with it every time you fuck up.
I work for weed on weekdays and hash on weekends.
haha
Ive got to do this on my own, ill be fucking 25 years old in a couple of months and I dont even have my own place any more. Been sleeping in jail cells and couches the past year and half really.
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Fisherman
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Re: forever junkie [Re: drawde]
#633141 - 07/29/12 07:31 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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I dont see how school can be a dream ._.
sorry I feel too cramped up in this conversation
ima stay in me cornerh..
find some woods, dissapear into the void, bai bai cruel wolrd, forbidden fruits couldnt taste better picklez!
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Fisherman]
#633142 - 07/29/12 07:34 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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school itself isnt the dream, it's the opportunities that it opens up.
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633144 - 07/29/12 07:42 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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plan is to start doing a workout routine here in a couple days. I am sure I am going to lose a shitton of weight this week from lack of calories and sweating soo fucking much
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633159 - 07/29/12 11:01 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Damn the asians are late opening today. Wth. China aint winning no basketball medals
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KaptKid
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Picklez]
#633169 - 07/29/12 03:49 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Good luck to you.
Adickisions are a bitch.
kinda like the old flame I just broke up with.
-------------------- Child of the 60's, Tripping ever sence.
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P-O
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Re: forever junkie [Re: KaptKid]
#633174 - 07/29/12 06:01 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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stay in school
Edited by Stoneth (07/29/12 08:16 PM)
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Mycophile
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Re: forever junkie [Re: P-O]
#633181 - 07/29/12 07:24 PM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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Picklez
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Re: forever junkie [Re: Mycophile]
#633215 - 07/30/12 01:32 AM (11 years, 7 months ago) |
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got 8 hours of shitty sleep, but it was sleep. I am thankful for that
day 4.
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