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I guess I kind of paired anxiety with the anxiousness that I get while I have all the obsessive thoughts running wild in the background.. I've tried meditation, it gets me calm temporarily, but I STILL feel like I'm doing it wrong, it never really gets rid of what's on my mind, it just sits there dormant for a bit while I try to let it go. I can easily identify the things I can't change, doesn't really help, I've tried writing, it works for me sometimes, but if I really tried to write every time my thoughts got going I'd never have time for anything else.. The only times I can actually maintain being calm, is when I'm stoned, I can actually manage to try to do something creative without being on the verge of an aneurysm trying to make it absolutely perfect..
Today I spent an hour and a half pixel editing a picture to be exactly straight.. From full size, you can't even tell that the pixels aren't exactly straight and are actually pretty sloppy.. But it still bothered me.. I also quit drawing since 8th Grade, when drawing became too much of a hassle for me to bother trying.. It'd be more of me sitting there, getting pissed off at how many times I make mistakes, rather than actually enjoying the activity.. So it's pretty safe to say I have at least a minor issue with OCD..