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my parents would be legally retarded if IQ corresponded with proper parenting.
although both my parents are older than most consider my age (i'm their oldest son) they weren't very mature or prepared for parenting as far as I can tell.
I seem to be boarderline bi-polar, schitzophrenic (by this I mean the symptoms are there but I'd never be diagnosed with either. I seem to have hardcore anxiety, chronic depression and I'm an insomniac.
I've very arguementative, aggresive, and don't really get along with anyone IRL. I have very few friends I see or talk to on a regular basis.
My last long term / well paying job was around 4 years ago and I can't really stand working.
its ok, I read Web MD. I know what I am talking about.
-------------------- "If we could sniff or swallow something that would, for five or six hours each day, abolish our solitude as individuals, atone us with our fellows in a glowing exaltation of affection and make life in all its aspects seem not only worth living, but divinely beautiful and significant, and if this heavenly, world-transfiguring drug were of such a kind that we could wake up next morning with a clear head and an undamaged constitution - then, it seems to me, all our problems (and not merely the one small problem of discovering a novel pleasure) would be wholly solved and earth would become paradise." - Aldous Huxley GIVE ME OPIATES OR GIVE ME DEATH
I prefer benzos, booze, opiates, weed. I'm actually thinking of quitting benzos and seeing if they will work medicinally for me I have a very good feeling they won't because I used to abuse the hell out of them.
If i'm not drinking and I take 6mg of clornazepam it doesn't get me high at all nor drowsy.
I'm also very ADHD but don't take any medication. I also don't drink much caffiene at all. I'll have my coffee days once a week max. I used to drink a lot of energy drinks probably 4-7 bottles of bawls a day or 4 cans of rockstar. That didn't begin until after I was most definately an insomniac and adhd. (haven't sleep more than 3-4 hours avg since I was 13 or so)
I stopped drinking coffee 2 weeks ago, but today I am drinking it to help get my sleeping schedule back to normal. I am hoping to stay up for the rest of the day and go to sleep at around 10-11pm.
-------------------- "If we could sniff or swallow something that would, for five or six hours each day, abolish our solitude as individuals, atone us with our fellows in a glowing exaltation of affection and make life in all its aspects seem not only worth living, but divinely beautiful and significant, and if this heavenly, world-transfiguring drug were of such a kind that we could wake up next morning with a clear head and an undamaged constitution - then, it seems to me, all our problems (and not merely the one small problem of discovering a novel pleasure) would be wholly solved and earth would become paradise." - Aldous Huxley GIVE ME OPIATES OR GIVE ME DEATH
I haven't drank coffee or caffienated drinks frequently for about 6-8 months now.
I've really been cleansing my body and excersizing a lot. (I'm at around 2hours of leisurely cardio a day, 30mins of intense cardio, around 4hours total workout time daily)
I drink tons of water. eat organic veggies, non commercially raised beef/bison, chicken, eggs.
I even started juicing to keep up energy levels, drinking around 6-8 servings of fruits and 12 servings of veggies a day.
Celery + cucumber + apple = delicious beets + apples + raspberries = delicious too!
Sounds like a classic case of hypochondriac and self-diagnosis to me. The reason self-diagnosis doesn't work is because you're biased. You may deny it and may not realize it but you are. My personal feelings on the subject are if you believe you can't fix it yourself, seek a professional.
prehaps that could even be possible if I went to see doctors... unless I need stiches or a bone set I don't see doctors... well I guess I'd go for gun shot wounds, and a possibly life threatening illness too but it doesn't happen.
I actually don't even talk about my issues to anyone and decided I'd just ramble on here.
Anxiety isn't hard to diagnose, nor is insomnia especially in my case where I've tried just about everything from behavioural conditioning, herbal medications, meditating, medicating, and exhuasting my body.. having panic attacks when you don't have a heart disease or cardiovascular issues is pretty coined in too.
As for chronic depression that was an actual "diagnosis" for when I went to see a professional as part of my alcohol recovery. If you met me the aggresion, bi-polar, argueing and failed work ethic wouldn't suprise you at all. I was supposed to take prozac and something else but I was in high school and thought it would be cool to rebel and I sold them.
As for schitzophrenia, that's my only exaggeration I feel as though I have extreme attitute and expressional changes, the diagnosis of schitzophrenia in the case that it isn't full blown is really a shot in the dark anyways.